So the past few days have been tough. I’m not sure why. This past weekend I watched the NPC Ohio State Body Building Championships and left incredibly motivated. Then I woke up Sunday thinking, wow I’m never going to get there. WHAT?!?! How in the world did I honestly let myself think this.
Ok, so if I look back at the start of this blog and fast forward to now, I have changed tremendously. No, I don’t have as much muscle as I need and yes I want to get it. No, I have not won a show and I am far from it. No, my diet has not been perfect since my last show. But do I have the power to change all of this. ABSOLUTELY!
I really have to refocus my energy on becoming the best me I can be. If I compare myself to others, I will never be good enough. I know I need to have the confidence in me to step foot on stage the next time feeling like I belong and can contend with some of these amazing women. You can’t control your competition or if the judges like you, you can only control you.
I thought this journey would get easier the longer I traveled the path, but it gets tougher each step. So today I continue along my path, lonely at times, so rewarding at others. My meals are packed, gym bag is ready to go, workout supplement next to my bed, and my head is back in the game. I think I have realized that self doubt happens, but it’s how you handle it. Just because I have moments of doubt, does not mean there is reason to completely derail or ruin all the work I have put in. It’s times like these where you chat with a friend who motivates you or you go bake in the kitchen and binge on dare I say it, two scoops of UMP instead of one 🙂
So the path is long. There are many stones I may trip on along the way. But as long as I keep going, one foot in front of the other, day in and day out, staying on the same path, I am confident –
MARCH 16, 2013 – I will look better then August 4, 2012. I will step onto that stage knowing that at the end of the day I put the work in, I may have stumbled a few times, but who doesn’t. I will enjoy a day of pampering, laughs, and nerves with some of the best friends anyone could ask for. That’s what makes this journey unlike any other.
